|Atty. Cherry Julian-Inventor in a wedding dress by Louberry. :)|
The time I received the message from Ate Cherry that she wanted me to make her wedding gown in three months time, I was excited, grateful, and...afraid. Excited because it would be my first time to make a wedding dress! I've made a dress previously for a wedding anniversary, but I knew that THIS wedding dress stands on a different level. It would demand more work (more patterns and getting acquainted with new fabric!), and it would bear witness to the start of a lifelong journey between two people, and it would be part of the family's story. I was grateful because I've been entrusted with something I believe was entirely beyond my expectations. Everything I know about dressmaking and sewing at that time I had known only from self-study of books and tutorials online, yet people keep trusting me to create things for them. I am overjoyed everyday with these opportunities and only resolve to fulfill all these tasks with cheerfulness and faith. Then again, there was also a fear that I might not be able to create something that's pretty enough and good enough for the client. I guess when you've grown up with very conscious attention to detail, it is never easy to let go of perfectionism; but I've figured that it's also a good thing because a certain obsession in perfection makes you always in love with quality work. :)
What helped get me through similar overwhelming fears were not songs like Mariah Carey's "I can make it through the rain," or uber melodramatic Thought Catalog posts flooding my Facebook newsfeed. What have always helped me through these fears were real-life stories of like artists who made me realize that it is a NORMAL thing to be afraid and to be overwhelmed and to cry out of struggle from time to time. And then to smile again and approach every waking day as another opportunity to embrace our work.
I was particularly touched by this post, entitled "Let us all be thankful" by Ms. Lori Portka, who is one of my favorite artists EVER. :) We had exchanged a few e-mails back when she was just starting, and I was just discovering my love for sewing.
In the post, she shared how she managed to embrace gratitude amid her fears as she was preparing for her big event at the National Stationary Show. Here is an excerpt from her blog post: